Ella's great grandma

I remember telling my grandma I was pregnant this past summer. I was surprised at how excited she was at the news. Throughout my pregnancy, she would remind me to take it easy and take care of the baby. Grandma Loretta turned 92 in December. She had been in the hospital just the month prior and I was able to spend quite a bit of time with her. One day I remember she was talking of my grandpa and how he would be gone 10 years in January. In my experience of working at a retirement home, her comment had put a little worry in me as I remember how a lot of times subtle comments or simple acts by people just tell you they are ready.

And, here we are in January, not to the date but it is 10 years since we lost my grandpa. I can just here her words, "you know it will be 10 years in January since we lost grandpa".

It saddens me that Ella will never meet her great grandma Loretta. A loving, strong woman. The woman who told me I had to be "more brassy" when I was little. My grandma who yelled at the little boy at the park when he was making fun of me and yelled back at him "shut up fatty". 

I remember and miss the days of growing up with my grandparents and it saddens me that Ella will never meet them. And since I am going there, it also saddens me that Ella will not have the chance to meet her Papa or her Gramps. But at least I know she has 4 grandparents watching over her and making sure she comes home safely to us.